When the packages containing the physical proofs of my first two books arrived, I was quite surprised that rather than being excited and anxious to open them–like a young child at Christmas–I was reluctant to do so. I put the packages aside and worked on other things for a while. It was a most unexpected reaction.
It took me some time to figure out why I was reacting that way, then it dawned on me. I love the process of writing and developing children’s books, and learning and managing the most effective and quickest ways to get them published. That’s where the fun, juice, learning, and growth are for me.
Once I held the physical proof in my hand, that signaled the end of the race, and the end of the fun relating to the creation of that book. Everything beyond that point for that book would feel anti-climatic.
I made sure to take a little time to savor the moment, but it took a conscious act to do so, and for me it was bittersweet.
I think that is also the reason why I like to have multiple projects under various stages of development all the time. Each project has points at which there is nothing to do but wait (for the illustrations, layouts, printer, mail delivery, etc.) Waiting would frustrate and bore me.
With multiple projects, I always have something fun to do and always feel as though progress is being made.
Still, it isn’t all about the process.
I’m filled with joy when I think of reading my stories to my grandchildren when they become old enough, and that my books may bring smiles and laughter to other children and their families.